Buc Buc aftermath

This Post Is A Continuation Of The Previous One.
I'm sitting on my bed after all the drama has subsided and Lowell and Dave have just about tucked me into bed with an ice pack tied around my knee. Sitting up in bed I called some loved ones to inform them of what happened. After sitting there for a while it dawns on me. God can heal my knee. God can heal my knee! "God, you can heal my knee!" I begin praying about this for a while and slowly I am ramping up the praying as I go. "God, you could heal this knee right now. As I lay my hands on this knee I am asking you in your name to heal this knee!" This goes on for a while and then I bust out with..."God, you command dead things and they listen...rocks, sticks, people respond to your command! My knee is not even dead and you can heal my knee. So why wouldn't you?" Some time went by in this prayer and suddenly I had a thought creep up in the back of my mind. I thought, "I don't even have faith and trust God to raise my support for full time ministry and now I am believing and expecting God to heal my knee!!?" This shot right to my heart like an arrow and my demeanor changed, changed! "Oh God! Who do I think I am? I'm coming before you as if I have the faith to ask you to heal my knee because You can command dead things!? And I don't even have faith in You to provide support for full time ministry!? Oh God forgive me, I repent of this sin of disbelief!" After much weeping I told God not to worry about my knee because I understand it is a healing process and it will take it's course. With a new perspective I fell asleep not waking up until 7:30am. This morning my knee felt very sore but quite a bit better. I didn't even feel a need to walk with the crutches. Besides they would not be safe going down a gravel hill to breakfast. Fast forward to Dan's ministry site at the physical therapy office. He smiles because he knows he has a great teaching opportunity in me to show the aspiring young therapists on team here from the states. I'll shorten the rest of the story.
He shows them my good leg MCL and how it responds pulling back in. He shows them my bad leg MCL and they get sour faces as they see it over bend as my knee buckles inward. Then he shows them my good leg ACL and how it "pops" back when pulled out. Then he says, "Now look at how this one...pop...pop...hmmm...interesting...pop...pop. You know...pop...pop...it actually seems fine." I let out a "WHOOOOOO Thank you JESUS! Halellujia!"
Here is the significance. Unless you are a many million dollar pro athlete NO ONE gets an MCL tear fixed. You live with it. You learn to compensate for the lack of inner knee support and have it the rest of your life. An ACL tear must be fixed and is only done through surgery. I Don't Have To Have Surgery!!! I believed (and it may have been) that my ACL was torn. I repented of my sin of disbelief. Did God use this to show me an area I needed to see? Yes! Did God orchestrate this for my lesson? Jacob wrestled with an angel in the old testament and lived with his hip as a reminder. I will always have this MCL tear to remind me of how I need to trust God. I will leave you to your own thoughts on this. I know mine, and thank God for healing an area of my heart that did not trust Him. Accept it for what you see OR explain it away in logic. Either way, God is on His throne. And, He's on it a little more in my life :)